Impossibilities Are Denied Through Faith

"It is impossible"

When Your Heart Takes Control

Sometimes...

you realize ur heart wants something

and really, you yourself just want the other.

I know I'm supposed to control my own heart. Its my responsibility.

But at that moment, I just couldn't control it.

I lost it.

When JEALOUSY, ANGER and DEPRESSION is allowed to worm its way into ur heart, then you won't have control.

And that's when..

you get hurt. You reveal yourself to harm and pain.

And trust me, it hurts real bad.

I knew it was gonna come 1 day.

And I didn't do anything to stop it.

I hope you understand..

I was just jealous that you were getting all the attention.

Jealous jealous jealous.

I hate you ENVY. yes i hate u a lot.

You ruined my primary school life,

and you're not gonna ruin it again.

I'm sorry sherrie

I luv you.

HopesxDreams Debut Part I

Feeble attempts to fight for my rights.

Feeble attempts to gain something I knew I could never have.

It was like falling while thinking you were flying.

It's crazy I know.

But welcome to my life.

My life of lies and yet some truth hidden somewhere.

Like a lost lamb finding its way back home.

~~

Perhaps I just didn't know any better.

I was just a naive little kid.

With pathetic and weird dreams and all that.

But before I knew it, six years went by in a flash.

And so did all my dreams.. and hopes..

--

I shut my locker the very touch of dust threatening my nose.

I rubbed my nose and the itchiness eased.

My glasses twisted slightly and I flinched when I heard a loud BANG from behind me.

I turned around to sneak a peek.

The guys from the other class were doing some kind of... stunt I guess?

I hurried into my class afraid to get involved in whatever they were doing.

I relaxed as I felt the safety of being in my seat wash away my fear.

I took a book from the floor beneath me.

It read "Holy Bible"

'.... Christianity?' I thought.

The bell rang alarmingly loud and students began to pour into the classroom finding their own comfy seats.

Seconds later, our homeroom teacher entered the classroom.

After introductory time and a little lessons, we all left the classroom for breakfast.

--

I found myself wondering if I really belonged here.

The students pretty much knew each other already.

Some were from the elementary school just next to ours.

Some were from some other schools that transferred here and they already have friends.

I, on the other hand, was just... alone.

I wanted a friend, someone I could dedicate myself to.

But no one ever came to me.

I felt my heart sink to the very bottom.

My heart ached for the first time in this school.

And it was only my first day.

Thirteen. TEEN.

Is this.. how it feels like?

Just Sitting and Stopping To Think

Yeah with all the buzz going on,

sometimes I can't think... at all.

Sure I live and sure I breath and go on with my daily routine.

But.. I guess you can say I can't be ME anymore

Life's so strange... right?

I'm not saying its bad.

Its really great!!

But.. when I get so tired I just kinda well...

slip and fall somewhere along the way.

And when my fun ends,

I panic and realise that reality's still here.

And that's when I stop and think..

Who am I?

What have I been thinking?

What have I did?

What if I did something really wrong..

..and I didn't know?

.....

And ...

I know its not my place to say this but..

some people are really just blind.

They can't see the obvious truth..

Sometimes I feel like giving up.

But I can't...

because...

I musn't.

Tribute To My Friends

Who in the world ever said life was going to be easy?

No one.

Who ever told you your dreams are gonna come true by just having fun?

No one.

Who ever said I don't care about you?

NO ONE. (if there is, that's fake)

I know a terrifyingly huge amount of people who are so emotionally broken.

Or unstable. Whatever you call it.

They are afraid.. in the dark.

They want to shout and scream and just pour out their hearts to someone they know who cares and will help them and fulfill their promises in whatever way they can... (breathes)

but..

they don't have that one person.

And they're afraid that if they ever do pour their hearts out,

that person will back stab them.. betray them.

Christ, what has this world become?

I know you and I can name you even though you don't tell me any thing at all:

Zhi En, Kher Yuee, Christine, Megan, Serene, Krystal, Cherie.... (yes a lot more)

You have no idea

how valuable this life of ours is

you really don't..

I so wish I could show you

right now .. how special even breathing is.

You were given life

not to just live it and die.

You were given life

to change it and transform it to a DREAM land.

If you gave any damn to the Bible at all,

you will know.. why God created us.

And if you don't give a shit about God,

Then listen to me now.. cause this.. you have to know

I know you think I'm a f**cker.

I'm just crapping here right now talking bout some junk I'll forget in a day or two.

But that's wrong.

Believe it guys.

you gotta start BELIEVING.

Believing means to have hope.

Without hope, there is no light,

without light there's only darkness..

with just darkness u can't see a thing.

And u fall deeper and deeper ... (ok u get what I mean)

So think.

Think right now.

I know its holiday and u don't want to think but pls do

Do you think for the rest of your life you're gonna be like this?

Bitching and crying and locking up all your emotions in that tiny fragile heart of yours until your last breath?

No!

So why are you making yourself suffer?

You're gonna have to face it someday.

The sooner the better.

You feel less hurt (are you keeping up with me?)

You HAVE to pour out your heart if u have to.

If you want to scream, SCREAM!

If you want to find a good friend, then BE a good friend!

If you have a problem then fix it!

These problems are just something temporary

they ain't gonna last long.

So do something.

Don't just stand there

I'm always here.

I'm not some vain Miss Popular or a bitchy bitch

I don't tell secrets to somebody else

Heck..

I never did and I never will

Because I love you guys.

I accept your faults and flaws and most of all I accept you

you have no idea how much I care

how I can cry right now..

because I care and it hurts me to see you so sad.

I'm not bull shitting I'm not.

Please.. Listen to me. Try.

You have to keep trying

Don't give up.

I'm here to lend a hand.

Whenever possible.

With all regards...

Happy Holidays...

Have fun and I love u guys.

ciao~

--Rachox_Rachel_YourForeverFriend

Like a Dream

Yay its holiday time..
I'm at my cousin's place
Playing and eating and sleeping like there is no other care in the world.
XD sounds fun? eh? and i can sleep and wake up anytime and anywhere i want

I can eat anything I want
no one's there to nag me
to tell me what to do ^^

But..
this doesn't last forever right?
Its sad
One week only
when i get back
I have tons of exams.. and projects to hand up

Life isnt fair
Sometimes its a dream and when it ends,
you find it so short
like it never even happened.

As for friends,
they can always smile and laugh with you. Yeah..
but you never know when they back stab you
Curse you.. and everything

I'm sad..
I feel like all my friends are drifting away from me
and i got one question:
am i too quiet? am I too emo?
please reply..
someone.. im insecure.. so freakin insecure..
I need replies and comments.. please..

Faster and Faster..

Yeah ^^
So .. I'm sitting here.. right in front of my computer
and I'm tapping on the keyboard.
When I can do so many other things this second
Its crazy right?
When you think about it..
there's actually so many other things u can do other than the thing you're doing at that moment.

And you wonder.. are you wasting your time?

Cause time is ticking...
faster than you know it to be.
the next thing you know, maybe 10 second's already passed.
Isn't that just hilarious?

So what are you gonna do..
in this short life?
Are you gonna lose it all because its that short?
Or are you gonna strive to make this life and world a better place to be?