Feeble attempts to fight for my rights.
Feeble attempts to gain something I knew I could never have.
It was like falling while thinking you were flying.
It's crazy I know.
But welcome to my life.
My life of lies and yet some truth hidden somewhere.
Like a lost lamb finding its way back home.
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Perhaps I just didn't know any better.
I was just a naive little kid.
With pathetic and weird dreams and all that.
But before I knew it, six years went by in a flash.
And so did all my dreams.. and hopes..
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I shut my locker the very touch of dust threatening my nose.
I rubbed my nose and the itchiness eased.
My glasses twisted slightly and I flinched when I heard a loud BANG from behind me.
I turned around to sneak a peek.
The guys from the other class were doing some kind of... stunt I guess?
I hurried into my class afraid to get involved in whatever they were doing.
I relaxed as I felt the safety of being in my seat wash away my fear.
I took a book from the floor beneath me.
It read "Holy Bible"
'.... Christianity?' I thought.
The bell rang alarmingly loud and students began to pour into the classroom finding their own comfy seats.
Seconds later, our homeroom teacher entered the classroom.
After introductory time and a little lessons, we all left the classroom for breakfast.
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I found myself wondering if I really belonged here.
The students pretty much knew each other already.
Some were from the elementary school just next to ours.
Some were from some other schools that transferred here and they already have friends.
I, on the other hand, was just... alone.
I wanted a friend, someone I could dedicate myself to.
But no one ever came to me.
I felt my heart sink to the very bottom.
My heart ached for the first time in this school.
And it was only my first day.
Thirteen. TEEN.
Is this.. how it feels like?
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