One Thing

There's one thing everyone needs in life.

And that's love.

Not lust. Not money. Not sexual satisfaction.

LOVE.

Yes people often get tempted.

I do too.. I'm not afraid to admit it.

But sometimes you just know that you have one thing right there

Hidden under all those lies, burden, stress..

the longing...

to truly LOVE.

I'm scared..

I'm really really scared.

I want to love ..

but I don't want to break hearts,

I don't want to break my own heart either.

Yes I'm a coward.

.. Yes, I'm a hypocrite.

But above all..

I'm weak.

Ever since the beginning,

I was unable to choose between choices..

even when one choice seems most beneficial among others..

I won't listen to my heart..

I'm sorry..

But I'm scared.

And there's no shoulder there for me to cry on.

There's nobody I can fully trust to keep my secrets..

there's no one who BOTHERS...

I'm tired.. afraid... sad.. very very SCARED.. heartbroken..

lonely.. depressed, disappointed, mad.. everything..

I'm trying to put on a smile..

to be "Rachox"

but guys..

The truth is : I'M SCARED