Lying to Myself

Minds.. can really play dumb tricks on you, huh?

This that aren't there.. will persist to exist if you believe.

But if you don't, its not there at all.

I want to be happy, but somehow deep inside of me, my mind keeps telling me that I don't need that. I don't need that happiness. I don't WANT to be happy.

But its not true! I want to smile and laugh and be cheerful, but I can't! My mind's playing all these tricks on me and I can't focus... I'm lying to myself..Its such a pain.

What.. should I do?