Why Are You Doing This To Me...?

I had always been backing you up... Even when you were angry for some misunderstanding, even when you'd panic, even when you're crying.. and even when you're lonely. Why do you take advantage of my kindness? I realised how stupid i am today.

I have always been trusting you... Loving you, comforting you and embracing you. Am I that detestable? Am I that much of a bad person that no matter what I do, i'll never be able to prove my love for you? Why can't you see... that everything i do, I'd never EVER hurt you.

Yet somewhere deep down my heart, I've always known that you hated me, you didn't WANT to actually be close buddies with me.. You just didn't want to seem all alone. But I denied that.. because i loved you. And now you're leaving me AGAIN, you always seem to misunderstand.. either that or you never tried to understand how I feel in the 1st place. OR you HATE me.

So, guys, let me tell all of you this, I would NEVER hurt my friends' feelings. I would always put you guys first.. before me. I would always try my best to avoid hurting y'all in anyway at all. But some of you just don't seem to understand.. don't seem to notice.. don't seem to realise how much I love ALL of you.

I've got like.. 2nd place in class for Feb Monthly test and i felt so happy, I felt like it was all just a fairy tale... but then, when i finally felt like rejoicing, you guys gave me sour faces.. ( some of you, you would know who you are if you read this) faces expressing jealousy.. HATRED. What part of me was showing-off? What part of me was looking down on you..? I don't understand...

You're gettin' me so confused.. I feel like you'll never be able to understand. You'll just continue to use me for your own advantages.. if that's what you want to do, then i hope you'll understand this: I don't want to hurt you, but all your decisions and stuff made me come to a conclusion " I don't need friends like you, if you won't leave me, I'LL leave you".

Sorry, I had no time for Forbidden History today.. So, see ya.

When I say "I love you",

I meant it.

When i say "I'll leave you",

I will NEVER come back.