Thanks a Lot

No, I'm not being sarcastic.

I'm meaning this.. thank you very much

from the bottom of my heart.

I truly am grateful that you gave me this experience of a lifetime

I will never forget.

I will never forget how you shown me love and kindness like no other

I will never forget how much you cared even when you had your fair share of problems.

I'm not afraid of you.

I don't hate you.. guys.

The people I want to be.

The happy cheery and loud people.

I'm just jealous.

It brought me to who-knows-where-I-am now.

I like you.

I do.

I just can't find it in my heart to open my heart again.

I'm gonna try..

whatever it takes.

I don't mind being shamed anymore.

I don't want to be Miss Unfair and Alone anymore

I want to stop this nonsense.

I have to change.

I've been told too many times already.

And all the times I've been told and ignored.

I will double that time of trying and actually doing something

To 2 Arif peeps:

I'm sorry I'm such a bitch.

for writing your names down..

for handing them to Mr.Robert.

I'm sorry that you don't like the way I'm doing that..

Actually I was at a period of time where

i was really emotionally broken down

I was so pissed

I felt like crying and screaming and letting out my piss all at the same time.

I was taking out my anger at you guys

I hope you understand..

I know I was wrong

I'm sorry.

i'm sorry.

i'm sorry.

I promise I will make it up to you guys.

I promise I won't simply write down your names anymore.

but you do have to understand, its my job.

I won't do much more than that.

I want to know that even though i've become a bitch and that some of u dislike me already,

i'm gonna change.

I'm gonna pay for what i did two times over.

i'm gonna help you guys.

just ask me for anything.. I'll be glad to help.

Megan.. or Sonia.. or whoever that's reading this, please spread it

I want you guys (2Arif peeps) to know that i love you.. not in a gay way,

just.. me-loving-my classmates way.

And i'm really sorry for being such a bitch.

I'm gonna be contented with what i have.

I'm gonna change.

And this time, if i fall and break and shatter and suffocate,

i know I have my friends and everyone else to back me up.

2Arif I'm really sorry.. i hope u can forgive me for insulting you guys..