Depressing Memories...

When I flash back,

I realize that what I have, is only so little..

I have nothing to lose, and nothing to protect. I feel so empty and.. more than anything else, lonely. I mean, its not like I'm scared of being lonely or anything, but I don't want to be left out of something that EVERYBODY else already have long ago.

I don't want to be stripped off of everything. I only have me, my hard-to-tell dream and my wish left. I don't think I even have my pride anymore. In others' eyes, I might seem to be jolly, great, nice and you know.. still have my pride, but in reality, I'm not all that.. I have so little left. So little..

I feel so dumbfounded when I see other people get along so well. I can tell that they're truly happy with each other.. they never have arguments, they always talk with a smile and in the group, its always laughs I hear. never a single time would I hear total silence.

And when I look at myself and my friends, I feel so ashamed. We're so quiet.. so empty, so silent like we're having an examination or something.. =.= While eating, how lame is that? And then, it struck me,.. am I being to unapproachable? Am I too, I dunno.. quiet?

Gawd am I screwed.. I feel sick to the core man..