Don't Wanna Lose This..

I've worked so hard.. gone through so much.. I don't want to lose this now. I don't wanna lose all that I've worked so hard for.. I don't wanna cry.. I don't wanna lose myself.. I don't wanna be not me.

I love you.. yet, it seems so hard. Am I not good enough.. shit. You damn freak. Shit head. Idiot.. Asshole.. you juz don't seem to understand. You're so oblivious. You are just so blind.. Why can't you open that blind eyes of yours just for a steady minute and look around you for instance?

Everything.. not only me.. but everything.. was caused by your foolishness. They're not what they once used to be. They're all corrupted, filthy, destroyed, they are all so deep in the dark that it seems impossible to get them out of it again. i don't want to be corrupted by that darkness.. not to the core.

I hate this.. It must've been I dunno.. 10 posts that I wrote the "I hate.." bla bla bla line. Yeah, I'm getting tired of that..>3> Not only do I hate this though, I don't really want to be a part of this anymore. Why should I stay if its only gonna hurt me more..? There is absolutely no reason at all to. So..

I might be leaving.. I'm thinking about it. What do you think?

Underhanded techniques

and wise decisions,

the double sides of poles

that always attracts one another.

The beginning of chaos..

the suffering of the between.