Sunday, April 18, 2010

Uncertain Desires..


Why is it so hard to choose? Is this how life's supposed to be? .. I suppose so.

I .. should I choose the right thing? or should I choose the easier path? I mean, I'm so tired.. gosh... Any advice? I felt so stumped when I heard that you were.. no .. when I was.. me. I'm ashamed of myself..

Sometimes, I want to do stuff I know I'm not supposed to do.(but I don't)
And sometimes I do stuff I don't want to.
Really.. why can't I do the things I want to do?
I'm always trapped in an invisible cage

I can't come out.
I can't do what I want to do.
I must always do things against my will..
I'm FORCED to.

What is this? Am I just some kind of human experiment that comes and goes?
To experiment how humans feel.. think.. move.. love.. and regret?

I don't want to lose everything.
But if I lose everything, things would be easier..
I want to smile.. and yet I don't.
I want to be cheerful.. and I don't.
I want to be me and I'm not.

Who am I? Who are you? Who and what am I dealing with?

2 comments:

  1. Hi Phui Yen!(: Since your such a good friend! teehee I'll try and give up the best advice that I can cook up!
    You should always do what's right in your own perspective..and you shouldn't care about how anyone else judge you because it doesn't matter..
    Your you and no one can change that fact
    You control yourself and you make up who you wanna be on your own and not others
    You should always go out and do whatever you feel like doing
    Who cares if people are staring?
    Who cares if they think your weird or whatever
    Because what you think of yourself is way more important that what others think of you
    Okayy..umm is that the kind of advice you need? (: sorry!
    I'm not really sure of what your real problem is I'm just trying to help with all I can!
    So yeahh..
    Smile always!
    Bye!

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  2. thx.. well, not exactly but it does help a little x3 , i luv ya~

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